More mud, please?

Dear Olivia, We went up to the park in Parley's Canyon (Washington Terrace) with Stephanie, Zach, Charlie, Maddox, and Fey. I brought your swimsuits, because you love to wade in the stream at the back of the park. You decided to play in the mud, wanting to spread it all over your body. I asked you not to and I don't know why. Maybe because I was in my "gotta deal with that later," mentality instead of the "let's live life and have a little fun," mentality. Sorry for telling you no. Sorry for stopping your creativity. Sometimes I will do that. I ended up not worry about it in the end after I actually listend to what I was saying, and you were able to spread it on your stomach, but I notice that I sometimes stop you from doing the things you should be doing right now. I feel bad about it because you just want to be a kid, smile, be happy, and have fun, and then you have grouch-o mom that is stopping you. So I wanted to make it known that I recognize this about myself and I am learning to be more relaxed and enjoy the moment (not what I am gonna have to 'deal' with later), and live, love, my (our) life. Forgive me for some of my major imperfections. Love, Your mama